My wife always says I should write a book. Well, this is a small step in the direction of self expression. My free time has increased thanks to losing my job...and getting a cancer diagnosis has certainly been the catalyst that has launched a thousand blogs.
Unlike others, I'm not going to focus on the cancer...it will certainly be front and center as I navigate my options. Prostate cancer seems like it will be great fodder for writing...not because it is especially vicious (it usually is not...mine is not), rather because it is so controversial. From testing, to diagnosis, to treatment choice, I'm not sure that I've seen so many contradictory views...most very passionately held.
I'm not a victim...I know why I lost my job...I failed to modify my behavior in the manner that my boss wanted me to (I'll address this in a later post)...And as for the cancer, I'd bet that my crappy diet, lazy exercise habits and stress level are the root causes of it. A week after getting the axe and a couple days after my cancer diagnosis I can honestly say that I am more relaxed than I have been in YEARS.
A friend of mine posted this on her facebook page today, and I'm gonna steal it...thanks, Cookie:
If you really want to be free, you've got to be prepared to lose your world--your whole world. If you're trying to prove your world view is right, you might as well pack your bags and go home. ~Adyashanti
About Me
- Dave
- At 45 years old I lost my job and was diaganosed with prostate cancer within a few days of each other. The title of this blog is not meant to be too dramatic... It's an obvious reference to dealing with choosing a treatment option for the prostate cancer. It also refers to devoting 25 years to a career and then waking up one day with no job to go to. Finally it's a nod to one of my favorite movies...where learning to "face your fears" is the key to moving forward.
I wish I had cookies courage and 1,000 feet up perspective. But I don't. Here's what I tell myself when faced with adversity: "It only takes one 'yes' to change your life. Fuck the 'no's'.
ReplyDeleteI agree with your wife, you should write a book. You have always been good with words and you have smart things to say. I enjoyed reading your blog. Take Care.
ReplyDeleteSome things just aren't going to make sense, but I have learned in a short time that it is better to be happy than right. I have also learned that seeing a therapist and an attorney at the same time is like watching a tennis match at fast forward speed. I'm done with my attorney... he needed me to be right... my therapist wanted me to be happy. That's where its at.
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